Humbled.
That's what I have been since I landed back in Florida.
I've never before been in a place where I was so dependent on people both financially (funding for The World Race) and literally (no longer have a vehicle). It's amazing to me to see the people in my life that have stepped up to make sure that I get to where I'm suppose to be, when I'm suppose to be there. And while I know that they are doing it because they love me and WANT to I can't help but feel like a bit of a burden.
What a word. I've felt like a burden before but never to this extreme. What I find all the more fascinating is that during camp God kept pulling that out of me; my insecurities of feeling like a burden. I've never been afraid to ask for help to get a task done but when it comes to feeling an inconvenience to someone else I've always hesitated in asking for help. It came up multiple times at camp and I had to learn to trust that my World Race family would be there, no matter what. I feel as if God is trying to teach the same lesson in this regards. I have to learn to let people help me. I'm not sure where the insecurity comes from and while I have my suspicions I'd rather spend my time focusing on not feeling like such a burden.
It's a bit humorous to see things fall into place in my life. I feel that everyday something is even more confirmed in my spirit and in my life that points to the simple fact of this season: I'm suppose to go. And while I spend all this time trying not to stress about the money, about feeling like a burden, and how it's all going to come together, I know that God is looking down on me, just smiling at my obedience.
And can I just say that there's nothing like being exactly where He wants you – even if it IS uncomfortable. <3
