I wrote a letter to God today.
It was a pretty difficult day for me. I spent about 45 minutes laying in the driveway and just staring at the stars. There's something so relaxing and reassuring about basking in God's creation.
And it's a reminder of how BIG He is, of how small we are, and of how much more trust we need to have in His plans for our lives.
Before I came on the race, I pinpointed a nickname for God in my life.
It came from this past year of struggle and stuck with me through my decision to take on this calling.
But I haven't thought about it since I've been here.
Until tonight.
I was writing my letter to God and it just came out in my sentence.
"You are the moon."
God is the moon in my life.
The moon is forever present.
Did you know that?
Even when the sun is shining and you can't see it, the moon is still there.
It waits until the opportune moment to present itself, and has different seasons. There are moments when it's clearly evident it's there and lighting the night sky (and your way) but then there are moments when it's barely a sliver, or the clouds are covering it and it's a struggle to see.
It doesn't take away from the fact that it's there.
In my life,
God is the moon.
He's always there, forever present .. even if He's hard to see or the path hasn't been clearly highlighted for the season.
He's the moon.
In the letter I wrote, I asked for something to confirm a few things in my life.
A lo' and behold, God spoke through the pastor's (of the church we were visting) testimony of his son.
I won't share his story, because that's his story not mine, but I will share what he said to us before closing the service.
He was wishing us farewell since we leave in a week and simply reminded us that God has the last word.
To remember to keep our faith in him during both affliction and joy, in both the wellspring and the desert.
To remember that God has the last word, in all things.
While I'm sure there was more said, and the content of the testimony definitely played a role in my reaction, what he said brought a deep wave of emotion, and realization.
His words put so many things that I'm walking through into perspective.
No matter what trials, tribulations, struggles, brokeness, etc that I might be walking through,
God has the final word; always.
Tonight was such a beautiful reminder of that.
He is the moon,
and He has the last word.
Never forget that.
<3tasha
