Sometimes we don’t even realize that we aren’t really living in total dependence on Jesus. It happens slowly over time. Kind of like when you are in a boat floating on a lake, if you don’t put the anchor down then you start to drift. It’s not apparent until you look up and see a point of reference. Jesus is our point of reference good things can keep us from looking to him. All the sudden we are doing so many good things yet there is no joy or excitement. We have become distracted and not looked to him. This causes us to not even be aware that we are drifting. Recently I’ve fallen into this trap. I think that in all the preparation to leave I have forgotten that God still has work for me here. I still need to live in dependence on him and put him first. I’ve been doing all these good things but they have been replacing Jesus. I realized this a week ago when I read Revelation 2:4. This verse is written to the loveless church. They were told that they had left there first love even though they were doing all these really good and important things. I too had left my first love and exchanged him for ministry. I was becoming frustrated and feeling like everything was such a burden. I had lost the joy in things. So today I am choosing to not do this. I am choosing to put spending time with my Savior first. So I want to leave you with this challenge. Whatever you are doing, STOP, remember your first love! You know the one that you’ll see in the manger this Christmas. He still lives and offers you a life that is full of peace and joy based on him and not outward circumstances. He longs for you not what you do. Not saying to stop everything, just let him live through you in all you do. Don’t settle for religious activities over Him!
