TRUST ME ENOUGH to let things happen without striving to predict or control them. Relax, and refresh yourself in the Light of My everlasting Love.
Those are the first two lines in my devo this morning. In less than an hour I will find out my new team. Maybe I will be left with at least one person from Lovesong, maybe not. I have been thinking about this change for over a month now. My team laughs at how trying to figure it out is like trying to figure out a winning March Madness bracket. So stinkin many options. Who is gonna be our new leader? Are we gonna all be split up? Are guys gonna join? What are we gonna do if there are guys? We have been living with only girls for three months now.
Starting over is not something I’m looking forward to. I could name reason after reason that I would love to stay with my current team. I have grown in ways and areas that I didn’t even realize needed growth, just in three months. My team has come alongside me and pushed me (even when I didn't want to be pushed), loved me, cried with me, cried for me, prayed for me and over me. And the list goes on. We were talking yesterday about how we spend more time with our teams than we do with our own families back home. We wake up together, eat every meal together, do everything all day together, go to bed together. Then start over. There’s no 8 hour job where we split up. Nope. All. Day. Every. Day. That’s not an easy thing. You have to love unconditionally, you have to see people for who they are, you have to have grace, you have to serve when you don’t feel like serving. Before the race I read blogs about it but I never really understood. Now I do. And I don’t want to leave my team. But it’s here, in 32 minutes in fact. I will find out who I will now be living with, doing life with.
While there is so much that is unknown about this whole team change thing, there is one thing I do know. That God is still sovereign. That He does not withhold good from His children. That He is faithful. That no matter who my new team is, He will not give me more than I can handle. That I can rely on Him every second of every day, and He not only will carry me through, He will DELIGHT in doing it.
So although this is going to be another tough goodbye this month, I will trust Him. And I will relax and refresh myself in His love, knowing that no matter where He leads me, He will be beside me.
