Oh sigh…As I sit waiting at gate C29 I realize that this flight has been a long time coming.
And the tears come, (for you mom). I’m remembering the memories that make me who I am. I’m lost in the imagery of all the people and places left behind. It’s hard to bring separation to these points of connection.
“You can kiss your family goodbye and put miles between you. But at
the same time you carry them with you in your mind, heart and stomach
because you don’t just live in the world but a world lives in you”
-Frederick Buechner
Tears of relief– I know in my heart that God has sent me down this path. Tears because I know my life will never be the same. While it is a relief to board the plane, I realize that I am stepping into the unknown. It seems crazy that I have a complete peace about the future. From the moment I pressed send on my computer, to apply for the Race, I’ve have had not one hindering thought.
Lord,
I am going to listen and take my time with this as You call to sort out my weaknesses. I commit to putting my life in this, falling over myself until it all makes sense. I feel like I’m always going out or coming in and I realize that this is what it’s about. Phases will cycle throughout my life. I am ready for the pressure and challenge in this new chapter. I’m only human but I will do this if You will work through me. At times, I have been so far from the place I belong and I’m here, yet again, to hand my life over to You.
