It’s So Hard To Say Goodbye
Boyz II Men had it right. I know I haven’t physically lost anyone, but it’s still a loss. Today is my last day at work and I’m up early because I’m nervous and sad. There have been a lot of moments over the last three years where I’ve struggled at work. For the last few days I haven’t been able to recall many of them. Which is truly a blessing. Usually when you’re ready to move on it’s all the negatives that resurface.
This morning I was hit with an overwhelming sense of loss. Memories that I’ve made. Things I’ve accomplished. The values of my work place. I love that Ecova gives us a community service day every year. I am actually really bummed that I ran out of time before I was able to use it. I love that our office is small and I know everyone in it (by face even if not by name…I’m so bad with names). The people….That’s the part I will miss the most.
No more planning company outings. No more awesomely comfy ratty yellow office sweater (you’ve been retired 
). No more break room conversations. No more bathroom conversations (Yes, women have full out long conversations in the restroom. No, we don’t think this is weird – it’s why we go in pairs…not really, but really). No more walking through the cube farm…being a fabulously entertaining distraction. Oh, these are not tears of joy right now. I shouldn’t be surprised. I cry at everything, but I’m seriously sad. More than I thought I’d be.
I have met some amazing people and established awesome friendships. Everyone who knows me knows that I prefer to live in “Tai-land” with pink bubbles of positivity, rainbows, and unicorns…but reality says that there are some people I will never see again … and that breaks my heart. I will miss you Ecova Family. FS you hold a special place in my heart always!!! Thank you to everyone who signed my card. I’m packing it to read any day where I need to fill my love tank. So I can remember that I am loved.
I know some of you were actually working 
so I don’t have pics of everyone. Love you all!!!
