I’m good with either…Tai or Natalia. I’ve been both for so long. Most people call me Tai (Ty), it’s just easier since so many people try to rename me. Natalie is beautiful, but it’s not my name 🙂
I went home to visit my parents for my birthday and Easter and spent most of my time stuffing envelopes. I sent out about 100 letters so far…we’ll see. I have people that told me they are going to give, I just haven’t seen it yet. I’m going to have to get more comfortable/assertive asking for money for this trip. I figure I’ll start calling people next week to ask what their commitment is so I can get an idea of what I still need to raise. I’m also working with the T-shirt company to design my supporter shirt. And working my Mary Kay business to raise funds for my equipment. I’m working hard not to be overwhelmed.
Blogging….uhhh! I’m hoping once we launch i’ll have more to say. You’re right, part of it is laziness and part is not wanting to sound silly. But that’s exactly how I feel, silly and awkward and ugh…so unworthy. I’m really struggling with that…I’m having a hard time praying and it wasn’t my strong suite to begin with. Since I’ve been back, I’m grumpy and all together blah. I don’t feel anything. I know I’m excited and I know this is where God wants me to be, but I can’t share it openly. I spend the most time at work and I can’t tell anyone…So, It’s not really real. I won’t tell my job until after training camp. My immediate work group hasn’t been very supportive in the past and I get my feelings hurt on the regular. I don’t think they are bad people, but the things we care most about are very different. I know there are people in my work place that will support me, I just can’t share til the end of July. Sadness 🙁
