Tomorrow I leave for Georgia!! Tomorrow I will be driving to Georgia from Louisiana with one of my squad mates!! This past week has been kinda rough emotionally, but I for sure get to Launch so I’m super excited!
So as many of you know I did not meet my July 22nd deadline of $10,000. Despite all my fundraising the money just wasn’t there. For the past two weeks I have been really nervous that I wasn’t going to be able to launch since I didn’t meet the deadline. Honestly, my emotions have been alllll over the place. From fear, to doubt, to peace. It’s been 11 months since I got accepted onto the world race and this journey has really been something else. I honestly have doubted if this is what God wanted me to do because it hasn’t been placed in peoples hearts to donate. Over the past 11 months I didn’t start to question if this trip was for me until the past two weeks. When I didn’t meet my deadline it really hit me. I felt all these mixed emotions slap me in the face. This whole time when people asked what would happen if I didn’t get funded I told them that isn’t going to happen. I will be funded and that’s that. Well when reality set in and I didn’t make my goal I had thoughts like, “God is this really my calling?” “why aren’t people supporting me?” ” what if I heard wrong from God?” ” What am I going to do with my life if I don’t go?” I let these thoughts rule my mind. Which I shouldn’t have! 2 Timothy 1:7 says ” For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and a sound mind” I let my mind become a field of fear, not power and love. Today I got a call, text, and email saying that even though I am still under the 10k mark I’m still going to launch!! God is so good! It makes me ashammed that I ever doubted I would go! Where was my faith? Well my faith was situational. My faith was there when things where good, but fear took over when things were bad. This journey has just started and God is already teaching me a lot about his character and mine. I’m so beyond blessed to be going on this journey. I’m so greatful for my supporters too! Seriously, I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for y’all! I can’t express how greateful I am for the people that have kept me in their prayers and donated.
Durning these past 11 months of prepping for the World race one verse has kept coming up and sticking out to me. Matthew 17:20 ” He said to them, Because of your little faith, For truly I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountian Move from here to there, and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you” I have a blog about what this verse means to me, and I truly feel this verse has been so relevant in my heart these past few months for this very day. My faith was put to the test when I had to wait for the phone calling saying if I could still launch. I wear my mustard seed necklace almost everyday to remind me to have faith. Nothing is impossible to God! I still need $1,260 to reach 10k for launch. I know the money will come in because I have faith it will!
My next blog will most likely be when I’m in Africa!! I’m not sure when I will able to update my blog, it will depend on the wifi connects overseas, but I will do my best to keep everyone updated! Thank you again for all your support! (:
