Several years ago during a time of fierce struggling, as a last resort, I fasted and prayed for God to move in my life, to deliver me once and for all from depression, etc. I got an unusual word from Him that "my inheritance was coming soon" – that my "promiseland" was just around the corner. I wasn't too sure what that meant exactly. Heck, I thought it meant God was going to bring me a husband soon, haha! One thing I did know, however, is that good things were coming… a better future, hope, and deliverance.
A couple of years went by though and I sort of forgot about that specific word I got from the Lord. (go figure)
The first day of training camp, one of the speakers said something that brought that word to remembrance. In describing why we all were here preparing to go on the World Race, that God had brought all of us here for a reason, he said "THIS is your inheritance."
WHOA! I suddenly remembered all the different times God had spoken to me about that, and not truly understanding. All this time God had been preparing me for the World Race, for MY inheritance. And not only that but a friend of mine who went on the race last year, had been praying that I would choose to go on the race months before I'd even thought about it. (Yes Karen, I'm talking about you!! =) Just a few more confirmations that God is calling me to do this… because at times I wonder how on earth I'm going to.
One of the songs at training camp had lyrics that really spoke to me, they go something like this;
I WILL NOT BE SILENT
I was born to worship
I WILL NOT BE QUIET
the voice of fear
can hold me back no more
I WILL NOT GIVE UP
what is my inheritance
I WAS BORN TO DO GREAT THINGS
and God is ALIVE
He is INSIDE OF ME!
It's almost like God specifically singled out the lines, "the voice of fear can hold me back no more" and "I will not give up what is my inheritance"… as if to remind me not to give up when things seem impossible or discouraging, (ie. fundraising)
In the past I've allowed fear to control me, to dictate my decisions or lack thereof, and at training camp I decided to put a stop to it. I decided to not allow fear and discouragement to keep me from living for God and pursuing what He has for me. I've made my choice and I'm not going to let fear hinder me from running this race, my race. So…here I am, two thumbs up and all. =)
