I was sitting in the back of the room last night at PenHOP (Penang House of Prayer) during a time of worship when I found myself staring back at my own reflection in the window next to me. I sat there for a few moments meditating on all that God has done in my life over these past 11 months, when a joyful thought suddenly occurred to me, “I’m still alive!” The realization came down heavy on me. I am soberly reminded of so many dark nights in the past where I would be staring at myself in the mirror with self-loathing wishing with every fiber of my being that I were dead.
It’s humbling how far God has brought me in my life. The fact that I am still alive today is testament to the power and mercy of God. If it weren’t for Him intervening time and time again, if it weren’t for Him fiercely fighting for me and pursuing me in those darkest of hours I have no doubt that I would not be here today.
After I had that thought a question came to my mind, “why am I still alive?” I’m still alive because God has a plan for me, a calling that He prepared specifically for me before I was even born! I’m still alive because He has a purpose for me. And it is more awesome than I could ever imagine.
It was almost 4 years ago when I first heard about the World Race, but blew it off thinking, “that could never happen for me. Sounds exciting, but God will never lead me on such a great adventure.” I bought into the lie that my life was destined to be meaningless and boring. And yet here I am with only a few weeks left in my 11th month before heading back home to America.
This year has been life changing for me – I will not be coming home the same person. I will be coming home a 
free person, victorious and confident, satisfied and made whole – no longer broken or defeated, wishing and wondering if there was “more to life” than what I had. No longer questioning my worth, or my purpose in life. I have found my worth in Jesus. I have found that my purpose lies with Him and pursuing not just His heart, but people’s hearts. But that is just a snippet of what God has in store for me, and for all of us. I am constantly on a path of discovering more and more of what His purposes are for me because with God there is always something new and exciting up ahead. He loves to surprise us. God is constantly leading us onto new adventures, if we will just let go of what we think will satisfy us and follow Him.
He called me to the World Race for a time and it has been an amazing year, and now He is calling me to GA for even bigger and better things. The World Race was like a spring board, and Center for Global Action will help bring me to my fullest potential in the kingdom of God, through community, apprenticeship, and discipleship. Through the coaching provided by CGA, I will learn how to continue living a free and purpose-filled life and in turn teach others how to do the same. People everywhere are crying out for freedom and purpose and I believe God is going to use me to help make that a reality in their lives.
Would you consider partnering with me?
