How do I put into words what is going on in my head when I don’t even know. I am told that Thailand has a spirit of confusion over it and maybe this is why my thoughts are so jumbled lately. Thailand is like a different world to me. After spending the past five months in latin america everything is so different here. I had gotten comfortable. The five countries we visited in the past five months had so many things in common it was almost like we never moved except to change ministries. I guess this is culture shock.
All I can focus on is that God has a purpose for me being here. We have three very relational ministries this month. We are showing God’s love to the people of Thailand. I will write more about the individual ministries but for now I want to share what God is doing with me.
For those of you who know me well know that I am not an outgoing person. I tend to be more reclusive than social. I have always been on the shy side and had come to see myself as the person on the sidelines never really getting involved or being seen. God has been using this race to mold me into the person he wants me to be. He is giving me a heart for the hurting and lost. He is bringing me out of my shell.
Coming into this month knowing that we would be focusing on meeting people and making relationships I started to panic. I can’t do this. I won’t know what to say. God is showing me that I can do this. He has already given me a heart for people who are different through my past working with adults with disabilities. I see God moving in the conversations I am having with strangers. God is giving me the words to say and the courage to walk up to people I don’t know and say hi. For now this is all he is asking me to do, build relationships. To walk it out with Jesus by my side.
