I feel like I just got off the train from Malaysia to Thailand (month 7) last week. But in a blink of an eye, it’s already month 8.
To be quite honest, I went into Thailand a bit fearful. Malaysia was a bit difficult because of the leadership. I felt overwhelmed leading a team. Malaysia was HOT, but where we were was even HOTTER. When you pair heat (lack of sleep) + anything, it’s hard to have the best attitude. So despite all the great things that had happened in Malaysia, there were many difficult moments. Our team struggled to communicate well & respecting one another well. It was easy for us to snap at each other and get frustrated. Although I would say that my team functions well most of the time & really strives to Love God more and Love the ministry well, we lack(ed) in loving one another well. Seeing each other, listening to one another & desiring to be united were all things we needed to grow in. Knowing all this, I was exhausted. I didn’t know how to fix situations like this or even want to at times, but God told me to just look to Him.
With that I prayed.
I prayed that God will give me confidence and boldness.
I prayed that He will be my mouth piece.
I prayed to understand Him more.
& omg guys,
going into Thailand I was on fiyah (fire).
We were blessed with a night train (which is far far better than a bus). During the 20ish hour train ride I dug into the word, prayed, and read You & Me Forever by Francis Chan (it’s a marriage book, but i recommend it to EVERYONE). & WOW, God did a lot in my heart. My focus was realigned and I went in desiring to love the Lord more but also my teammates more.
“I want her to have a great life. But more than that, I want her to have a great eternity” – You & Me Forever
Q: What does it look like for you to desire that your friend/family has the best eternity with Jesus? What does it mean for you to love your friend/family members the way Jesus does? What does it look like to desire change for your friends and family? What does it look like to love them but Love God so so so so much more?
It’s about HIS kingdom. Not our kingdom.
It’s about HIS purpose. Not our fleshly desires.
It’s about HIM. Not about me.
Life becomes lighter.
Truth becomes brighter.
Jesus becomes sweeter.
& that was Thailand in a nutshell. Light, bright, & sweet.
