I have a confession to make: when I signed up for the World Race Candace and I agreed to go until the Lord closed the door on us. The problem is that deep down I truly thought He would (and kinda wanted Him to) close the door on the plans.
I thought I was in the job He wanted me to have. I thought that I was living the life He wanted me to live. I thought I was in a good place with the Lord and I thought I was the man He wanted me to be. The problem with that is I was thinking of what I wanted. But I am so unbelievably thankful that I serve a Lord that doesn’t give me what I want but what I need.
Every time a situation came up where the Lord had an opportunity to close a door on this excursion for Candace and I, He continued to open the door wider and wider, time after time. Anywhere from financial constraints, to logistical questions, to medical questions, to something as simple as a renter for our house, the Lord has provided and has left no room for questions. I finally began to really see (and believe) that this is what He had planned for us.
We have been in the field for less than a week and He is already starting to let me know why He didn’t close any doors. When I married Candace I told her, no I promised her, I didn’t want to be a businessman and that I wanted to be a family man. Oh how the mighty have fallen. Even with the best intentions I fell into the trap of a material world. One promotion and I was already making decisions that I knew were against my personal convictions, no mater how miniscule they might have seemed at the time or what little weight they carried. I was going against what I believe and for what, a paycheck?
I’m not saying I was out committing murder or treason but the little things add up and begin to numb the senses. A lie here and there, staying at work an extra hour in the evenings to try and get ahead instead of going home to spend time with my beautiful wife, my work became my passion and what drove me. Just putting that out on paper makes me sick to my stomach. I have the desire to serve the Lord and I not only want to be a family man but I want to be a true man of God. I want Him to be the weight behind my decision-making and not Myers.
And to think we have only been in the field less than a week. I am very excited to see what the good Lord does in our lives in the upcoming months and where He will lead the rest of our lives.
We’ll be posting a more detailed blog about our ministry and living situation this month (with pictures) sometime this week so be on the look out.
