In about a month I will leave, I thought I would share one of my favorite memories from this summer. Just a few weeks ago I went on a missions trip with my youth group to the Big Horn mountains in Wyoming.
As I was there I walked by myself in the mountains, stopping to take in the wonder, and close my eyes. Breathing in the cool thin air as the sun’s warmth slips pasts the trees and beats on my face. Then I felt the current of the wind circling through my fingers as my hair lightly bounces against my face.
Then I hear it, she’s singing with grace while dancing high in the morning sky, the branches cheer by ruffling their leaves with excitement. As I take another breath in the smell of soil and pine fill inside and take me back home where the pine trees grow tall behind the house and my mother is weeding her flower bed.
I slowly open my hopeful eyes, believing that I’d see her standing there, but instead the first thing I see are my feet. The same feet that have walked for miles on a journey to get to where they are now. I then spot a staircase of rocks leading to a garden of wildflowers. Greens, purples, yellows, and blues surrounding me. The path is guided by guards dressed in thick green coats, they keep their chins high, reaching towards the heavens. As I inch further I finally see giants in the distance, towering over to keep a watchful eye while we roam. I stand there in absolute awe, observing what the Lord has created with curious beauty.
In that moment I felt calm emotions wash over me. I wasn’t worried about the funds I need to raise, or if God was choosing the wrong person because I felt His peace in this very moment. I gave all of my worries and doubts to Him, and through that a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I can breath again. I know He will provide. I found comfort while standing all alone in just a sliver of His magnificent creation.
Since then, whenever I worry or doubt, I take myself back to that moment. Relive the feeling, and each time I get reminded that He is in control. I can breath again.
