i’ve realized since being away from home, that lately i’ve been trying to comfort myself with methods that aren’t Abba, one of these being social media. every time i would get onto social media, it seemed to reopen my homesickness wound because im trying to insert myself back home. this is one reason I’ve decided to deactivate my instagram account , but it goes a little bit deeper than that.
ive been dreaming with the Lord lately. dreaming the biggest possible outcome of this season, and seasons to come. social media has been inhibiting that ability. comparison immediately comes into play, and trashes whatever it wants. it has been putting my ability to dream in a box. instead of creating with The Creator of the universe, i base my interests, my art, some decisions off of what i see others doing- even if they are Christians, still not good. i want my hub my home base my foundation for creativity and influence to be Jesus the living God. what/whoever you surround yourself with constantly is going to influence you, that’s a fact you can’t argue. I want Jesus to influence me so I can influence the world. i want to fully have my eyes fixed on the Lord, the author and the perfecter of my faith. i want to write songs, take photos, wear clothes, paint pictures all based on Abba. all that being said, this is not to judge or condemn anyone on social media. i personally have some growth to do, so that’s what im going to do!
