Living in the here and now
This week’s blog post is a little all over the place so bear with me as I consider several different thoughts…
Wow the days are flying by……
The reality that in less than a few short weeks I will be back home is a crazy thought to ponder. Don’t get me wrong, I could not be more excited to see family, friends and sleep in my own bed. It is in the midst of the anticipation that my mind is jumping from place to place thinking of the responsibility and busyness that awaits me once I return. As I have been recouping from a serious sinus and ear infection along with bronchitis this past week (along with a killer migraine because of it,) I found myself day dreaming while lying in a dark room wondering what my friends are up to or how my family is doing instead of being able to be fully present in the beauty of where I have been placed right now. Maybe it’s the planner in me contemplating what my “next move” is; perhaps subconsciously trying to figure out how to balance my next semester of 17 credits at Rochester University, a Detroit mission’s internship, and a part time job. Though mulling over my upcoming future is not necessarily a bad thing in of itself, its when it starts to interfere with my current focus that such a distraction can be a tool used by the enemy. Who am I to prepare for a new season while in the midst of a season that I prayed and prepared for? God is calling me to stand fully present in my current unpredictable, faith-stretching calling: whereas, my flesh is craving comfortability and all things familiar. A Detroit focus seems more appealing, but I can say with full confidence that God is not calling me to seek a life of comfortability, regularity and predictability. I am commanded to something higher. I know this is only the beginning for what lies ahead; something unknown, yet something stirring within me none-the-less. I have peace knowing I am exactly where I am supposed to be. My mission field is in Jefferey’s Bay, South Africa… not Detroit, Michigan (for the time being anyway.) And then I remind myself, too, that maybe some of this is just a little bit of normal homesickness, but even that must come under subjection. I take comfort in God’s gentle handling of our souls as Psalm 103:14 says, “For He knows our frame; He is mindful that we are but dust.”
A short and sweet wrap up of ministry these past couple days:
What a week… If you would have told me I would have witnessed a world championship surfing competition a couple months ago, I most likely would have skeptically laughed. If you would have told me I would be using photography as ministry, I would have excitedly smiled. If you would have told me I would be teaching Math and English to kindergartners through high schoolers, I would have nervously gasped… I am so blown away by how the Lord knows me so intimately to transform what I deem as personal weakness into strengths to glorify His Kingdom (Math definitely falls under that category of weakness.). He can have all my short comings having seen what He can do with them! Do what you want to do with me, Lord, I’m yours.
Dear tired and drained Moriah:
Breathe, take a moment to remember who God is. Live presently and intentionally. Don’t be discouraged. Your God has already won. Though you are weak and struggling physically, you have a strong God who is more than capable of picking up your slack. Take advantage of the short time you do have to make lasting impacts that far outlive this lifetime.
Prayer Request
Week 6
Health: I have come to find that rest is a concept that needs to be fought for here in Jeffery’s Bay. The hustle and bustle of ministry strides at a rapid pace that can sometimes be overwhelming. Being the loud and boisterous girl that I am, I do love busy. Busy, however, has not proven a fan of me. I have had to push myself every minute. For the past six weeks I cannot seem to get over the hurdle of illness. Please keep me in your prayers to maintain a spirit of service without complacency as the antibiotics I was prescribed at a local clinic kick in.
Thank you all so much for your continuous outpouring of support.
Father,
Your will be done, nothing more, nothing less
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