This week. It’s been a doozy. At the beginning of every week, we have two off days where we get to adventure one day – then we rest the other day. This week we went paragliding on adventure day, which was SO GREAT – then on our rest day we don’t tend to rest because we’re in another country and there are so many things to see, so we out here like cant stop wont stop. Terrible idea. Though seeing all the places, visiting all the coffee shops, and getting all the tattoos is so fun… rest is so necessary. And biblical. So just don’t follow my example people.
As a result of this, exhaustion has been something I’ve experienced on another level this week, in every area. And the enemy was like “heck yeah I’m rollin’ with this”, hate him. I felt stagnant and in a fog most of the week, but go figures… it was our last weekend in Colombia where we had a concert and big church service that hundreds of people were coming to, so yeah… the enemy WOULD try this week. It makes so much sense.
A couple days ago I grabbed dinner, went to look at the mountains, and spent time with Jesus. I was processing with Him, asking Him questions over a nice bowl of stew while trying to figure out why I was in such a funk and I just said to Him, “God I wish someone would come sit with me who doesn’t have anything to say.” Kinda needy sounding, I know. But you guys… I kid you not – not even two minutes later, my Colombian friend, Hosea, came around the corner with freshly-picked limes and salt to eat with me. We just sat, with no words because the Lord is so good and sent someone to me who I literally can’t talk to. He just sat in my company and we ate limes and salt, which was surprisingly so good. And I was on the verge of tears the whole time, while also laughing at God’s sense of humor. How He loves us in the smallest things.
Something I’ve realized about myself over the last month is that I don’t ask things of people for myself. I give and give and give until there’s nothing left. At home I would cope with my family, rejuvenate with them, and talk things through with them – then go back to my people and do it all over again. Since I can’t do that here I’m learning what real vulnerability looks like, with my team who are my new family. Now don’t get me wrong, my team is THE BEST… they love so hard and I really couldn’t ask for a better family for the next year. However, as I’m learning this about myself and trying to get better at letting people know me FULLY, the Lord has had me depend and rely on Him, and its been beautiful as much as its been challenging. Just feels so comforting to feel so seen by Him when I’m sitting alone talking to Him. For Him to know me so well and send me EXACTLY what my heart needs in the perfect moments. His timing. He just knows.
Hosea the Lime boy and my homegirl Grace.
The amazing view I got to look at over stew.
Paragliding!!!
