Love is patient. That’s a part of my life I’m continuing to cultivate every single day. Love is patient. What is patience? It’s not just waiting. I think its allowing yourself to be open to having a gracious heart towards the faults in the friend who over helps, in the weather man because the Kansas skies are moody, in myself because I forgot my gloves on the counter. I haven’t slept well the past few days so anxiety holds my hand as I walk on campus, talk on the phone, and do homework. We live in a society that gets things in an instant. If there’s a new device out you have access to it at your fingertips, new taco bell french fries just a two minute car ride, literally anything and everything is yours with the click of a button or a ride in the car. Learning patience is a challenge.
I was reading through a devo about a month ago on the Exodus. God presents the Israelites with miracle, after miracle, after miracle yet as they walk through the desert they still question God’s providence. Okay urm… God just freed them from slavery!!!! The Lord gave their leader words to speak when he struggled with speech issues, He sent plagues, He threw a pillar of fire, and HE PARTED THE FRICKEN RED SEA. After walking in the desert they began running out of their own resources and started moaning. God (obviously) provided them with manna and water. Honestly, if I was in the Lord’s shoes I would have “tapped” out. He did nothing but bless them and this is how they thank Him? Through it all though, He was patient. The Lord is patience. The Lord is Love.
Alright, so how does this apply in my life? How much does God have to provide for me to stop questioning His providence. God is love, patience, kindness, He is gentle and not jealous. Why can’t I sit back and accept the beautiful miracles He continues to give me? On this day in particular, I woke up late, I looked in the mirror, my hair was more tangled then normal, and as dramatic as it sounds I bawled on the bathroom floor. It has been a hard day, and the weather is cold. Today I am thankful. Prayerfully if God gives them to me again I’ll have many other days just like today. I’ll be miserable or captivated by the details. Thankfully, He is in the details. He allows me to even find blessings in the trees.
Here’s a list of things I’m thankful for.
~fries in our student center
~nice smelling perfume
~my roommate:)
~blanket scarves
~neighbors who stop and sit with me till my next class
~people who smile back at me
~the sun
