My whole life I’ve lived by expectation. Whether it was trying to fulfill someone’s expectation of me, or setting expectation of others it’s been around for as long as I can remember. Maybe that’s the perfectionist quality in me, or maybe it’s some other personality characteristic that has made it so prevalent in my life. Whatever the case, the Lord has spent the last several months opening my eyes to how I limited a gift He deeply desires to give me.
You see, in living in expectation, I’ve given my Creator a coloring page to fill in…
“Color in the lines, Lord, lines that I’ve mapped out which create the life that I desire.”
God smiles at the neatly drawn page I’ve created and turns it over.
“Ah, there it is! A blank canvas” He retorts.
As I watch God splash color on this new page, I begin to live expectant. I’m eager to see what will happen when dips His paint brush in a new and vibrant color.
With that blank page I can’t suffer from disappointment or frustration when something doesn’t go my way because my way, my expectation, isn’t spelled out on the page! Instead it’s living in the moment, soaking in the color and beauty, appreciating the intricacy of each brush stroke.
I mentioned in an earlier blog post that this year I want to focus on living “even if” not “what if”. Added to that is this: I chose to live expectant of the Lord and His plans for me. I chose to give my Creator the blank canvas and “even if” a brush stroke surprises me, I will bask in His glory, joy and peace.
