So from my last blog you can gage that I have not been feeling like myself. I have not been seeking God as much as I need to be in order to get through each day. So I never expected Him to use me in such a tremendous way, but He always exceeds our expectations.
So my squad has gathered in Durban, South Africa for our month 7 debrief. At debriefs we always have sessions where our squad mentor Ashley, squad coaches, Tom and Cindy, and squad leaders new and old speak over us.
Well my favorite squad leader ever, Erika came back to visit from Michigan. Just to give you a little back ground on this women… she has known the Lord since she was 2. Her father was a pastor and raised her to seek after God with her whole heart from an early age. Honestly, she is the most spiritually mature person I have ever met. She was not originally suppose to be our squad leader. Things changed at launch and she was called and asked to lead us. She had just gotten home from leading another squad only 15 days earlier, she asked the Father and headed to meet us in Atlanta. Wow. What an amazing thing to jump right back into what God has for you like that. She traveled with my team the first week in India. In that time I spoke to her about how I was a newish Christian, had no idea what I was doing, that I didn’t hear from the Lord, etc. Well over the months, my relationship with the Lord grew and every time she would draw my attention to it. Always recalling the time in India I told her I didn’t hear from the Lord, or was not good at this whole Christian thing.
Well Friday night I enter our meeting space for an evening session with the squad and notice Erika off to the side holding her hand. She slammed it really hard in a door at her hotel. Her knuckles on her ring finger and middle finger are purple and swollen. She said she didn’t think it was broken, but was having a hard time moving her fingers, and I saw this. She literally could hardly wiggle them. I wanted right then to pray for her, but others approached so I left.
Well our squad starts worship and I move to stand at the back so I could be free to move around and dance if I needed to. I happen to find a spot right beside Erika. She was still holding her hand, but trying her best to worship through the pain. I go to her ask and if I could pray for her. I prayed healing over her, prayed for freedom from pain and brokenness, all by her faith and knowing that God is faithful.
“Go,” said Jesus, “your faith has healed you.” Immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus along the road. Mark 10:52
I finished my prayer and went back to worshipping, not a minute later she looks over at me and is moving her fingers. She says, “Morgan look!” The purple color of her knuckles was Gone, the swelling went down, she could move her fingers with ease. She was healed instantly! I was in shock! What just happened? Did God just use me to preform a miracle? YES! Yes He did!
This photo was taken after the fact. Can you tell which hand was slammed in a door? Yeah me either…!!
After that God did some things in the room, emotional healing. Our squad was set free from many things that have been holding us down in life. Free from things that have been spoken over us in our lives. Free to just be who God has called us to be.
God used the healing of Erika’s hand to set the tone for healing in the room. We needed to know that He was capable of healing a physical injure, so He is all the more capable of healing our broken hearts.
As I came back to my room after our session I was thinking about it and why God used me to heal her? Why was I chosen to be the vessel in which He displayed His power and glory? His response was simple LOVE. God needed me to see that He loves me. That He loves Erika. That He loved me enough to give me the honor of being that vessel. That my prayer for healing over Erika was powered by love. I love that women of God and I wanted her well. It was all about LOVE. His love for us overflows from us so much that it heals, that is overtakes those around us, His love can move mountains.
All I can say is WOW! What an honor! I am just blown away that God chose me for that amazing display of His love, power, mercy, might, glory, graciousness and so much more.
God still heals today and He still performs miracles today. We just have to be willing to be the vessel He needs. We are His body. He is willing and wants to show the world His goodness through us. We just have to be willing to say Yes.