Driving my car with the sunroof open, belting songs out at the top of my lungs.
Snuggling up in my comfy bed with my cushy pillows.
Taking long hot relaxing showers.
Having whatever I want to eat in my fridge.
Straightening my hair.
Girl's night at Cafe Del Rio and Rao's.
Using a nice clean restroom with a normal potty.
Lounging in my air conditioned home.
Having unlimited internet access and my iphone.
Attending service at my church.
Those sweet long bear hugs with my nearest and dearest.
Loving on my dog.
Holidays and birthdays with sweet family.
Tickling my little brother and squeezing his cheeks.
Having the same conversation over and over with my grandma who has alzheimers.
Relaxing with my family.
Laughing with my friends.
All these things are coming to an end in less than 3 months.
I am at such a weird place in my life.
I am still home doing life as "normal".
But everything feels WAY different
I am still here working, spending time with loved ones, going to church, etc.
But it's not the same.
Everything feels so precious to me now and I have begun to cherish these moments even more.
Normal things, like electricity, have begun to sound like luxuries.
It's so weird to think that in less than 90days, everything will change.
God is going to rock my world.
I can't fathom what all He is going to do in me and through me over this year.
I have never really experienced the kind of self-abandonment that the race requires me to have.
Which is sad because self-abandonment is also what Christ requires from us.
A whole year, where I have to stay focused on Him and trust Him and His direction fully…
I AM STANKIN EXCITED!
Everyone keeps asking what my plan is for when I get back.
They get rather put off when I tell them that I don't have one.
I've heard it's not wise, it's not a good financial decision, it's irresponsible, etc.
It hasn't discouraged me as much as it has dissapointed me.
Is this where we are at as "followers of Christ"?!
Where is our faith?
I think it's more unwise and irresponsible to make a plan for when I get back.
I know,O LORD,that a man's life is not his own;
It is not for man to direct his steps.
-Jeremiah 10:23
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I trust that God is going to reveal crazy things this year.
I trust that He is going to guide and direct me in the way that I should go.
I trust that He will not fail me and He is for me!
I've had things planned out Morgan's way for far too long.
I am excited to say that for the first time….
I DON'T HAVE A PLAN!
Lord, Where you lead me I will follow.
No turning back, No turning back.
