Last week, myself and 4 other people ventured off on a road trip to World Race Training camp in Toccoa Falls, GA. We were all so anxious, nervous, and unsure about what we were getting ourselves into. Thankfully, we all rode together so none of us could back out 😉
　
Training camp was NOTHING like I expected. Schedules, free time, and rest were pretty much non-existant. The first 3 days or so, we spent alot of time in bible study and lecture, doing a ton of self-examination. It was really intense (physically, emotionally, and spiritually). At one point, I really started to doubt myself and the call God had placed on my heart. I just thought, " I can't do this. God doesn't have anything to say through me that could impact the nations. I'm not strong enough."
　
Then, God met with me. He came to me in such an intimate and personal way. It really broke me when I realized how close and involved God truely is and wants to be in my life. I finally saw that I had been keeping Him distant from me. I had this great idea of a big God who did all these crazy miracles and has radically changed my life, but a God who is interested in every little detail and desicion I make each day? I felt inadequate and couldn't understand why God would want to be that intimate with me!
God used quiet times, worship, conversation with my squad, prophecies, and prayer
to show me that I can do this, because I have His spirit flowing through me. He told me, I am more than enough and that I have a beautiful story to tell that will impact the nations. He told me that the words He has placed on my heart to speak are important. He told me, I need to stop shutting my mouth, because I think others can do it better, and be confident in the words He has given me!
　
Through the course of flooding tents, sleeping on a bus, eating gross foods, doing intense team building excercises, getting my stuff "lost", not showering for days at a time, prophecy, prayer, worship, and establishing community…. Christ broke my chains of insecurity! He healed the wounds on my heart, He met with me in a more intimate way than ever before, He wrapped His loving arms around me and poured into me. I sought Him out and found more than I ever have. He filled me with such a
freedom, healing, and peace.
　
We pulled up to camp insecure, hurting, unsure, and carrying too much baggage..
We pulled away from camp confident, healed, empowered, and free!
I didn't survive training camp,
because I left a completely different person than I was when I arrived.
Now it's time to take this love affair on the road!
Training camp: SUCCESS!
World Race: READY!
