Prideful.
That is one thing I never considered myself to be. Out of my many flaws that was not one that surfaced until I began this adventure. It was one that snuck up on me and honestly surprised me.
I guess at some point in my life, I learned that asking for help was admitting I couldn’t do it myself. I have been called a perfectionist a time or two in my life, and asking for help has never been something easy for me to do. I would like to think that if I work hard enough I can do it all on my own.
The first time I realized that this was an issue was when I realized that I didn’t even like asking people to pray with/for me. I thought I should be able to pray for myself and that would be enough. How can I ask others to pray for me anyway and show them what I needed most? Ha…No! That was when God began to show me how the Church is the Body of Christ. We need the Church. Not the building. The People. We are a Christ based community in which we don’t have to stand on our own and we shouldn’t!
1 Corinthians 12 “20 But now indeed there are many members, yet one body. 21 And the eye cannot say to the hand, ‘I have no need of you’; nor again the head to the feet, ‘I have no need of you.’ 22 No, much rather, those members of the body which seem to be weaker are necessary.”
After this revelation I began to see how God was moving through my life when I opened myself up to the Church again. It was the most comforting feeling knowing that I had that support behind me, knowing that where I was weak…others were fierce and ready to fight on my behalf.
I thought that was it. Still, I didn’t consider myself to be prideful. Then the fundraising began. I knew coming into this journey that I would have to fundraise and honestly, that was the biggest concern of mine that the enemy was using against me. Still I was assured that God’s got this. He has this under control. He is my provider. Counting on God has never been the issue though. In my mind this fundraising was dependent on people. People are the ones financially supporting this ministry. People are the ones that I have to ask for help. Worse…ask for money. (Insert terrified face here.)
It took a little bit/absurd amount of devotion and prayer time before God had to finally repeat himself. I don’t know how I missed it. It is the same answer as before. “Swallow your pride Morgan! Accept that you are only one part of the body of Christ and you cannot function alone.”
Just because I am the one being sent into different countries, doesn’t mean I am going alone. I am being sent by The Church. Every person that is supporting me is an essential part of this ministry sending my team forward to do the work. This work isn’t just about me being willing to go do the work, but about having the support of the Church behind me every step of the way.
I want to say thank you to every single person that is praying for me! Thank you to every single person that has sown a seed into this ministry! Thank you every single person that has given not only financially, but given their time! We are the Body of Christ and together we WILL make a difference. Together we WILL move forward in this ministry and change lives. Together we WILL bring people into the Kingdom of God by sharing His love with the world.
I thank God for each of you every day! You are in my prayers and have blessings coming your way!
