I have been asked so many times why I chose to do this. Why in the world would you leave everything you have here? Why would you live out of a backpack for a year? Why wouldn’t you accept that job that you wanted? Why would you want to go when you have no idea what’s ahead? I can’t answer all of your questions about what God has in store for me over the next few years, but I can tell you that this is exactly what I am supposed to be doing at this point in my life.
I have known about the world race for years and have always known that this is something God wanted for me, but realistically speaking—it seemed like a dream that would never really happen. However, over the past year I have started to see every aspect of my life begin to fall in line with this plan. About a month ago I attended a conference here in the Houston area. At the time I knew that routes would be posted soon, and that it was finally my opportunity to begin this new journey. I had been struggling so much with this decision of whether or not I was actually going to go through with it, and I allowed the enemy to plant a seed of doubt in my mind. I prayed and told the Lord that I needed Him to give me the gift of faith about whatever choice I made.
That night was a miracle night for me.
That night we had church for seven hours.
Now by no means do I believe that you need a seven hour church service to hear from the Lord, but for me…that’s what it took.
Seven hours of being spiritually fed. Seven hours of being in the Lords presence. Seven hours of intersession for our generation and the world we live in today. Seven hours of activating what God has placed on the inside of each of us in order to draw closer to Him, and that night I did. That night I heard from God like I have never experience before.
I heard, “You are Chosen.”
Three simple words. That is all it took. No other words, questions, or thoughts that had entered my mind up to this point mattered anymore. I can’t explain the presence of God in words that will do justice to what I experienced that night. I can only tell you though that He has given me the gift of faith about this choice I have made. The terrifying unknown that lies ahead is not what I have chosen, but what I have been chosen for.
To accept that God would actually see me—know me—choose me, is completely overwhelming. He chooses me, in the broken state that I come in and it is His spirit that will be going throughout the nations. I am just the willing vessel. I know that this experience is going to be amazing and more challenging than I can probably imagine, but knowing that God is going to use me to glorify His kingdom is worth it.
Please continue to pray for me! Right now I am praying that God prepares me and molds me into what He needs me to be for this chapter in my life. Your love, support, and prayers mean more to me than you could ever know!
