Expectation.
Let’s face the reality that we all have them. About training camp, the World Race, and Project Search Light. As alumni racers we expect to come and be re-surrounded with the community of people we’ve spent everyday with. We expect to be moved and shaken by some of the best worship we have ever come across. But many of us expect for God to reveal callings and direction concerning this new season that we are all walking into.
Desiring knowledge and revelation is the driving factor for many racers to attend PSL. Project Searchlight offers prophetic rooms, amazing speakers and many avenues that the Lord works in and through. I am no different when it comes to this. I prayed for The Lord to reveal a calling or a passion that He has yet to reveal to me. But The Lord didn’t do that. He did better. God revealed more of himself to me.
During my 10 minute prophetic session, I got the words “romance” and “pursuit” in three visions straight. All visions about Jesus wanting to romanticize me and show me the depths of his relentless pursuit and love for me. This came as a shock to me.
At first I was almost like, yeah I know. I get God loves me. I know I am adored by Him. I sing worship songs like You Don’t Give Your Heart in Pieces, How He Loves and How Great The Father’s Love for Us. And we all know the children’s song, “Jesus loves me this I know, for the bible tells me so.” I say it and think it so many times a day. But God doesn’t just want you to know that He loves you, He wants to show you.
“So come away with me,” Jesus whispered to me in one of the amazing worship sessions at PSL. Even though I understand The Lord loves me, He revealed to me that I hardly ever allow Him to do the very thing that He wants to do. Which is love me.
He wants to romance me with beautiful places in this big world. He wants to sing songs to me. He wants to get me all alone, free of distraction, so He can speak truth and life to me.
One of the amazing speakers at PSL said that sometimes, like Adam and Eve in the Garden, we must let go of the tree of knowledge so that we can sit at the Tree of Life. As racers we have to let go of this need to know our call and our future so that we can obtain the things The Lord wants to reveal and give to us RIGHT NOW. I was so busy about praying and trying to decipher what The Lord wanted to do with my life that I almost missed what He wanted to do in my heart.
He wants to fill me with wonder and to amaze me. He wants me to dance under beautiful sunsets and be perplexed by the vastness of His creation. He wants to speak to me, sing to me, and love me more than anyone could ever love me on earth. All He desires is my full, undivided attention. His face is only focused on me and He desires me to be only focused on Him.
When coming to PSL, I suspected to be spiritually refilled, but not spiritually swept off my feet. I knew I was married to The Lord but I have never felt romanticized and desired. For that I am grateful because Jesus knows what I need out of Project Search Light even more than I do, and He planned all along to fill that. He fills the holes we were created with and gives us just what we need.
Everyone receives different things at PSL because God is creative and He wants to give you just what you need. This is due to the depths of His love and just how much He is willing to pursue and chase after us. The Lord wants to pull us away from the world that we just re entered so that He can do in you just what needs to be done.
