Nothing.
That’s what God had been saying to me a week into the World Race.
How can He be saying nothing?
Since the beginning of my faith walk, the spiritual aspect of my faith has always been strong. Prayer was always a strong suit, and feeling the presence of the Holy Spirit has come easily to me. Much of this relating to the fact that my faith was something I sought out for myself and not something forced upon me by my family. My family growing up was never big on going to church or reading scripture, so those spiritual disciplines started out way later in a more mature stage in my relationship with God.
While my faith had started and prospered so heavily on the spiritual aspect of things, I always felt super in touch with my God. As I matured, I could always hear His voice guiding me along in my life. Jesus had always been there, and I knew He always would be. I knew this because that’s what God promised.
This had never been an issue for me, that is of course until a week into my race. God stopped talking to me. I was reading scripture, praying, serving, and seeking God in everything. And He said nothing. And I was terrified. Was I doing something wrong? Was I not following His will? Was He not well pleased with me?
As panic rushed into my heart, I realized that all of these were symptoms of a spiritual attack. In that moment I turned away from feelings of fear and abandonment, turning to God and His truth. He said that He would be with me always, and I know it to be true.
That morning I was reading through Romans, and it validated everything I was realizing. My morning devotional discussed putting your faith in what is true because that will never be changed nor can be taken away from you. And that was the moment God began speaking to me again.
So much of my faith had been based on what I was feeling, that it took God to stop talking to me to realize that I believe what I believe because it is TRUE, not because of a momentary feeling that can be changed. The moment Jesus Christ rose from the dead, fulfilling the scriptures, it validated EVERYTHING He said. I believe in Christ, what he said, and that He is with me always. He had brought me into a deeper intimacy that is based on an understanding of who He is and how deep His love for me goes, not based on things that can be taken away from me or attacked by the enemy such as a feeling.
So how about your faith walk? Do you believe what You believe because you feel that way or because you know it to be true? Are you changing God’s truth to match your faith or allowing God to alter your faith based on His truth? There is so much intimacy with Christ to be found once discovering what the truth really is. And that truth is Jesus Christ.
