At our debrief in South Africa I had my first one-on-one with one of our squad parents Tim. He spoke a fathers blessing over me and God was clearly doing a big healing in an area of my life that I was hiding from the world. As I sat pool side with Tim tears started to flow from my eyes. I was in so much pain and I wouldn’t tell anyone the depths of my pain. I didn’t know my worth. I could spout scriptural truths about myself out of knowledge but I didn’t feel the weight of those scriptural truths.
My worth was wrapped up in what people told me about myself. I received nicknames and liked them because I could hide behind them and it gave me the opportunity to be anyone but myself. Lies would be spoken over me that led me to believe that Morgan was un-loveable and not wanted. That at least if I had a nickname that I would be somebody.
Tim challenged me to let go of my nickname and stop hiding behind it. To walk in the fullness of who God created me to be.
To be Morgan.
I called my team to sit with me and I asked them to call me Morgan. It was really important to me to be called by the name I was given, to try this new thing and to receive the healing that God has lined up for me to receive.
After that I noticed a shift. I no longer cringed when I heard someone called me by name or when someone addressed me. I was walking in freedom for the first time in my 27 years of life. I was no longer hiding out behind a facade.
The name that you are called or nickname has a lot of power! I had no clue of this power until I spoke out my feelings with my team. Speaking out truth has tremendous power whether it is a name or it is something hidden within you that others don’t know. I want to encourage you to speak out the things that are hidden or the things that you are choosing to believe about yourself that may not line up with what God says about you.
I wasn’t going to ever write a blog about this but God laid it on my heart today as I was led to Isaiah 62 this afternoon. Where it says:
The Gentiles shall see your righteousness, and all kings your glory. You shall be called by s new name, which the mouth of the Lord will name…..you shall no longer be termed Forsaken, nor shall your land anymore be termed desolate….
Isaiah 62:2-4
God said to me this morning:
What name would you want me to call you?
MoMo or Morgan….you are worth much more than a nickname.
Without a name you are not a part of your team, you are on the outside looking in. You are on the outside giving information and setting rules.
I asked God this morning what he called me not expecting this answer. The moment that he asked me what I wanted to be called I knew. He already calls me Morgan so why even ask him that question. But he answered me anyway. I was expecting something like beloved or adored. But nope he likes the name Morgan. He likes it a lot.
