When I was a little girl my mom became a history teacher, those years were very precious to both of us. I remember throughout the school year my mom would get rid of old posters and I would dig them out of the trash and take them home to hang on the wall above my bed. At night I would look at them and pray silently to go to the mysterious places on those posters. I never ever thought that God would hear my little girl dreams. Now I know that I have talked about this before, but I am standing in awe of God and His work in my life. I am just so thankful. For everything, even the broken pieces of my life, even the things that never made sense ( and maybe still don’t), and I am just so thankful for every season. I was reminiscing about those days of hanging posters from around the world with mamma today and I just started to tear up. I said “He never once pushed me….He never blessed me with fanfare or banners. He blessed me gently and silently.” He quietly ushered me back to Him….I remember sitting at the bar in those dark days wondering if I would make it back to my Fathers arms, and I did!! But he was never pushy about it or loud. He ushered me quietly and loved me gently back to His side.
God has been very clear with me about this mission. Every time I start to doubt or fear He instantly reassures me that this is very important to Him. He keeps providing every need that I have. Every single one without fail. Guys I am 47% funded!! I look at that twice or maybe three times and wondered if that was correct. Yes, it is correct. God is not kidding. He is serious about this. There is still a long ways to go, however I know that we will get there.
Oh God I am so thankful! You are such a mighty God full of wonder with a gentle spirit. I can not imagine any other life than this one. You called, I answered, and I just want to be where you are. Wherever that is today and forever.
