I am an over achiever. That’s a fact. I always want to be first, I want to be the smartest, funniest, and most interesting person in the world, and all before anyone else. I must come clean with my blog family now. 
When God called me out on the water I thought, “psh…I got this God!” I immediately started to sink. I took my eyes off of God and started thinking of all the ways I could accomplish life, ministry, family, and everything else that comes with living a life. I thought I could handle it. (seriously? why would I ever think that I could do anything all on my own) Turns out I was so wrong! I need God more than anything. I don’t got this! Today I am feeling just a little bit overwhelmed by it all but I know that Gods hand is completely covering me right now.
I don’t have to fear or worry or feel any other emotions that goes along with stepping out in faith. So today I choose to put my fears behind me. Knowing that ministry will all get done in Gods timing, that at work will be productive even though I just want to think about the race and everything that goes along with it. I choose to believe that whatever relationships need some pruning, God will allow a way for that to happen and he is the one who holds my heart and not anyone else.
My focus will be on his word. The only thing that I can trust, the only thing that ever makes any sense. I will fall asleep with my head on my bible if I have to! To just meditate on his words. Because that my friends is truth and everything that is good comes from scripture. It really does.
Oh, how I love your law! I meditate on it all day long.
Psalm 119:97
