I suppose that this is the season for dreams to come true. I decided to go back to college and I chose this semester to do it! Was I crazy or what? I am preparing to leave in January on the most epic and overwhelming adventure ever, learning to be a leader in ministry, and going back to school? Yup! I have always been an over achiever. Since I was a child I would sign up for every event I could find to keep myself busy. I just wanted to be a part of everything.
I will admit that to this day nothing has changed and if anything I am more of an over achiever. Which leaves me sitting here feeling so overwhelmed. Mid-termas are coming up, and not only are they mid-terms but they just so happen to fall on the week I get back from training camp….ummm ok. I also have two huge fundraisers that I am in the midst of planning. Oh, and not to mention the rest of my gear and packing. (and yes, that last bit is extremely overwhelming) The list could go on and on forever and a day, but my team mate stopped me mid-rant to remind me that Jesus will give me rest, all I have to do is surrender the burdens to Him. I mean duh right?
Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
Matthew 11.28-30
So clearly there is something that I am doing wrong. I am trying to follow Jesus, so if I am why am I not surrendering these heavy things to him, and why am I so proud in thinking that I can carry the load all myself? I CANT!!
I am reminded of a wonderful prayer technique that Beth Moore taught at her LPL conference a few months ago. She said “Face, knees, seat, feet”
This signified how our prayer life should be, we should always start out on our face in prayer. My greatest conversations with God are in my bedroom on the floor with my face on the ground, in acknowledgement that He is grater than I. There is no way that I can finish out the next 3 1/2 months on my own, I need Jesus. I need to hear from Him daily and I need to follow Him too, but I think most importantly I need to submit to Him daily. I need to yield my way of doing things and my ideas and come to Him and say Daddy what do you say?
