One of my prayers for this year is to know The Lord’s voice and to get to know who He is more.
I started off this week practicing being able to recognize His voice. I realized that our relationship was one sided. Most of the time, I usually was the one talking and I didn’t really give Him patience to respond. I thought if the Lord was sitting right here I would give Him my undivided attention and not let any distractions interrupt our talk.
This morning I was sitting on the roof overlooking the mountains in Lajas and I heard God ask me “what does it look like to sit at my feet?”
I meditated on it and read the story of Mary & Martha. I felt like to sit at His feet was to wait and listen for His teaching and to not serve with my own strength or my own ambitions!!!
Wow! I really felt like I was beginning to understand… Even Jesus had to take time away from his disciples and pray and listen to The Father with no distractions.
Before Jesus took on the mission for His life, He had to seek The Lord with all His heart for 40 days. If Jesus had to do that while He was walking the earth, than I want to continue practicing hearing The Father’s voice and asking him how He feels? And what He thinks? I don’t want this to be a one sided relationship, but instead give God time to communicate back.
This isn’t easy, but it’s worth fighting to silence my mind and spirit to know His voice and love for me….
Early in the week I could feel my lack of the Holy Spirit and I had a vision last night that there was a mug sitting on top of a thin sheet of ice over an overflowing river. What was in the mug wasn’t hot but lukewarm so the sheet of ice held back the mug from becoming part of the river. Then all of a sudden steam started rising from the mug and the ice started melting until the mug was flowing with the river.
At first when I received that vision I thought “well that sucks!!” But I stopped to look at my heart and thought “well just because I don’t understand, that doesn’t mean I should write it off.”
Then I understood what it meant for my life this year and the rest of my life. I want this year to be about my relationship with The Lord overflowing into others’ lives.
God is so faithful and I’m ready to keep growing and molding to be what He chose for me.
