Do we believe that God really has good things for us?
Well if you are anything like me you might think that Gods goodness is only for everyone else.
“Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father. ” John 14:12
Realizing earlier on in the race that I do not really believe in all of God, it was hard to believe He wanted to heal or provide for me. I’ve been praying since month one that my disbelief would change, that I would know the truth about God more than my wounds, thoughts and emotions.
It’s been a long journey of feeling like my stomach problems and feeling sick is my identity. I can rejoice in this day and tell you that God has healed me from my gluten allergy!
I started this week knowing it was going to be different. I prayed that God would heal me and make me whole/holy as He desires. I knew I was ready to let go of my definition of beauty and that that was the root of why I was sick in the first place. My idea of being beautiful consisted of being a certain size and physically fit, so I didn’t want to be allowed to have carbs. Honestly I wasn’t ready to be healed until last month. It may sound crazy but I didn’t want to be allowed gluten because the allergy helped me manage my weight. But I don’t want what the world says is beautiful but what God marvels at when He looks into me.
I feel the most beautiful when I’m in His presence and I know He wants to show me off.
God is so good!
All week I ate gluten and continued praying/speaking over myself that I wasn’t going to get sick from gluten and thanking Jesus for making me new.
I kept singing over myself:
“Breathing out all sickness
Breathing in Gods healing.”
I hope and pray that anyone who reads this will be encouraged to not settle for their suffering but turn the pain into passion. That you wouldn’t give up seeing God for who He truely is regardless of your circumstances.
Most of the time the places that we feel wounded the most is where our calling is placed or that’s where our genius is. Don’t give up, don’t get tired, look to your God because He wants to give you a true and wholistic life, created specifically for you.
