Someone once spoke to me, God doesn’t give you more than you can handle. Meaning you are strong you can handle everything life is throwing at you. Those words that I once found comfort in, and often spoke to others in hope of encouragement, I now know they are false.
The pain I have been feeling lately about leaving my Mother, Father, and my brother for 11 months has overtaken me. Eating dinner with my closest friends last night realizing that I won't be there next time they gather, laughing and reminiscing, my heart broke like glass. God has strengthened these relationships in my life in the past two years, and He has shown me to love them all individually more than ever. As I am beginning to plan more goodbyes, I am struggling. I have never struggled with goodbyes before ever. I have never been nostalgic in any circumstances. Why would God overwhelming me with this heartache now, when I am about to sacrifice everything for 11 months? Can’t He see that I have a lot on my plate right now with illness in the family, fundraising, work, while preparing to leave everything/everyone behind?
Today, I just finished a book, called Kisses from Katie, and God’s timing is beyond amazing and uncompressible. Reading about Katie’s tear jerking honesty and times of brokenness helped me to understand my own heartache, just a little. I know that this year, I will be put in circumstances where I will be discouraged and distraught with the poverty, sickness and brokenness around me. When things will become unbearable and my heart is aching and hurting I know now that God is blessing me with a gift. He is showing me how His heart breaks for each and every one of His sons and daughters. Did I not ask for God to break my heart for what breaks His?
God is teaching me, that I am not suppose to figure out, try to fix the or try to get rid of the heartache. I will most definitely become overwhelmed. I am to find my strength safe in His arms, everything I want, everything I hope in, everything my heart cries out for I surrender to Him. God has called me to The World Race, not only to share His good news, but also to break my heart and bless me with the understanding that everything from God also serves as a gentle reminder that every sacrifice and heartache is worth it, because it brings me closer to my heavenly Father and helps be comprehend His overwhelming love for me.
UPDATE:______________________________________________________________________________
This week God has provided the remainder of the funds need to launch on September 5th. I am over $6,500!!!!! Thank you to everyone who heard the whisper in their heart to give to this mission. God is truly using YOU to show me just how much He will provide for my every need. Please continue to pray for not only my support raising but also the emotions and heartache I am experiencing as I am saying my goodbyes and preparing to leave.
- It's NOT to late to support me I still need to make it to a total of 15,500, six months into the race, please pray and ask the Lord if this is something YOU should be apart of! You can click the support button on this blog, or send a check to
Adventures In Missions
P.O. Box 534470
Atlanta, GA 30353-4470
With my full name in the memo line.
Only four weeks until launch!!!!!!!!
