This month I have struggled and thought a great deal with just how big God is and how he works in my life personally. My whole life I have believed God existed somewhere, yet now everyday I wake up and I am learning that this is not the world I grew up in. I am learning that God is limitless and can do anything. Honestly never in my imagination would I have experienced some of the things I have these past few months.
It started in Penang, Malaysia when I was praying quietly and suddenly God began to speak to me so clear, there was no way for me question or doubt in that moment that He was speaking right to me. He told me things about Himself, about my life, he tried to explain just how much He loves me and wants to give me what my heart desires in this world, that He is for me, He told me things about my family and friends, and gave me a glimpse of what lies ahead in my future. In that moment I was doubt free and was just in awe of His presence right next to me. Every since then, when I pray or speak to God, He answers very clearly. In those moments, His presence erases any kind of doubt. But when reflecting back doubt creeps in. I have been very scared to write this blog because I know what I would have thought reading a blog like this not having experienced anything like this. Yet out of obedience I must share this with you. God has continued to speak when I ask questions. He has spoken to me about some of you and how I can pray and intercede for you. Even writing this blog I have doubts in my head that God speaks directly to me, yet I know in my heart He does. My logical brain says it is crazy. Looking back in the old testament we see many example of God speaking to Moses, Noah, Jonah, Hosea, Isaiah, Haggai and so on. Who ever said He wouldn’t do that now? Isn’t He the same God, He was yesterday and today? This is where faith comes in. God is slowing teaching me to have faith in Him, to trust Him.
The biggest example of Faith I have found is Abraham. Abraham never saw a Bible, didn’t have a church, possessed no creed, had not even heard the Ten Commandments and perhaps knew little about life after death. Yet Abraham trusted God when He spoke to him and obeyed Him. Did he call himself crazy? No he didn’t. He trusted Him even when God told him to sacrifice his son Isaac. (Genesis 22) Now take us who have the Bible, the church, the creeds, the ten commandments to tell us all about how God is for us and how much He loves us and we struggle with doubt everyday on who God is.
I encourage everyone including myself to take God out of the box we have placed Him in and let Him into your life. I am learning that more and more I surrender my understanding and limits on God, He is revealing more to me than I can ever imagine.
Faith, is believing in the truths written in scripture, even when things don’t make sense and ultimately putting ALL of your trust in HIM.
