First, I just wanted to apologize for not updating my blog in quite some time. The Lords been doing amazing things in every country we’ve been to thus far. I forgot how important it is to share our journey with others and how our words have such an impact on peoples lives.
Often times, when we go through a period of personal or spiritual growth it’s hard for us to see how the Lord is moving in us right there in the moment. Sometimes people don’t see the “results” until they take a step back to evaluate the situation or allow time to pass. Everyone’s timing may look different, for some that may be 10 minutes and for some maybe weeks, months or even years. And You know what that’s OK!
Now, that I’m already in month 7 (I know month 7 already could you believe!?!) I’ve had time to sit and reflect on all the beautiful things I’ve seen and all the challenges I’ve gone through in my spiritual walk. The most important thing I learned was to not believe the lies the enemy were telling me were true. Especially the ones I’ve been believing since childhood. They become this false identity that “feels” like it’s a part of yourself. When in reality it’s a big fat lie!
You see, I was believing that I wasn’t important. Important enough for people to ask me to go out for coffee or be noticed at work for a promotion. And in many other ways. I had been believing this lie for almost 35 years. That’s a long time if you ask me. My team and I have been praying against this lie for a few months now. At first, I didn’t see “results” because I wasn’t giving grace to myself. But, by the grace of God he’s shown me how merciful and gracious he is with me. “The Lord is merciful and compassionate, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love. The Lord is good to everyone. He showers compassion on all his creation.” Psalm 145:8-9
The Lord has shown me memories that I’ve blocked out because I only focused on the times I was unseen and how that made me feel unimportant. Each new day he helps me see the moments where I am seen. In doing that he told me you ARE important not only to me but to others, see for yourself. Once I started to open my eyes to the truth and not the lies, a lot of light got shed on that darkness. Although, I’m combating the lies faster than I used to in the past. It’s a daily choice to believe the truths of the Lord instead of the lies from the enemy. Sometimes this looks like me verbally speaking the truth that “I am seen, loved, and important” or labeling my thoughts as a truth or a lie. I know it’s a daily process but the Lord is walking me into more freedom from the lies that He is bringing to light.
I’m currently in Cambodia now serving at a hostel and evangelizing in town. Please keep the long term missionaries here in Cambodia in your prayers for strength and endurance. To bridge the gap between the older and younger generations of Cambodia.
Thank you so much for your prayers and support. Stay tuned for more blogs about my journey.
Love, Monica
