It’s all becoming so real. We have training camp in less than a week and a half, and we leave so soon for the real thing.
There are many excited feelings, but there are some nervous feelings, but I am not nervous about getting hurt, or not getting along with my squad mates, or being too home sick (well a little bit of that), but mainly I’m a little intimidated.
I grew up in a church, and went through the routine of what that meant every Sunday, going to Sunday school, learning the story of Jesus, talking about who God is and what he has done for us, things like that. What I didn’t do/learn was bible verses. I cannot spit them out off the top of my head, I don’t have them memorized.
My squad mates seem so good at always having a bible verse for everything and really knowing the right things to say. It’s intimidating. In March when I met some of my team I felt a lot better about going on the trip and deciding to go around the world to spread God’s love. That weekend allowed me to see that these people are amazing, they don’t judge and even though we had all just met, all of them truly care about us. Everyone is so excited to go on this trip and really make sure we all feel prepared and loved. That weekend allowed me to see that I truly feel like I am being called to go on this trip.
Not too long after that, I got nervous again about not feeling prepared to go on this trip, about not feeling good enough to do this. Then about 3 weeks ago I moved back home and I wanted to go to a different church than the one I grew up in. I went to church with my uncle and while I was there the church showed a video of a friend that goes to that church, she had just recently gotten back from doing the World Race Gap Year. What are the chances that I decided to go to that church and they play a video of someone who just got back from this trip, I say it’s God, showing me signs that I should be on this trip.
I might not be able to tell you the perfect bible verse off the top of my head, but I do know that I am good at creating relationships. While watching the video at church, the girl talked about one of the best parts of the trip was creating relationships with all the people, and even if they weren’t always talking about God, the people were learning because her actions were ones of a Godly woman. That, I can do. I can build relationships, and show love, and share God’s story.
At the end of the day, I know God is calling me to go on this trip. I still make mistakes, but I am learning to obey him, and really do what he wants me to do. I just need reminders sometimes.
Ironically, here’s a bible verse for this little piece of truth that’s been on my heart: “God doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies the called” 1 Corinthians 1:27-29
