We are past the half way point. This past Friday was 161 days on the race with 161 days to go. If you read my teammates blog, this is the part where we really start to realize what we have given up. This statement has not rung more true until now.
There have been times that I have missed being home and missed my family and friends. I have been homesick, but at the end of the day I have always known this is where God has called me to be and there has been no place I‘d rather be.
But, this weekend that changed. For the first time since starting this race, I would have rather been at home. Friday was my best friends birthday, Monday was another good friend’s birthday, and on top of that, this weekend was sorority recruitment at my college. Which meant that my instagram was full pictures from the all the festivities happening at home.
I enjoy Myanmar, I LOVE my team, the kids we are teaching are amazing, but seeing everything at back there and talking to the my friends and family, just made me really want to be back. It was that realization of what I gave really given up. I don’t miss the materialistic things, such as my car, or nice house, I don’t even miss the wifi, hot water or electricity 24/7. What I truly miss is my friends, my family, my people, the relationships, just going out and having good laughs and making memories with those at home.
Also having to process what I have known all along. That their lives continue to grow and move on without me there, just as much as mine is. They are making all these new memories and building relationships with friends, just as I am. Sometimes it can feel like being forgotten though. I know that just isn’t true. But these are the things I cannot e given up to obey the Lords calling.
So because of this, I have called my parents and let them know, but for the month of February, I will be off the grid. I will not be on social media, or contacting home at all, other than to tell my parents I have arrived safely to my next place and to blog, of course. I realized that talking to my friends and seeing all the pictures is what caused me to not be content with where I am. I know that I deserve to be content and God wants me to be content. So I have prayed about it and decided that I will be turning it all over to God and leaving social media, contacts, and electronics behind for the month of February! I am going old school and saying goodbye to home.
