PRIDE
The World Race is a pretty big deal. I think everyone can agree on that. The Bible clearly says to NOT be prideful. But these are whispers I hear in my ears..
"Look Molly! They all love you!"
"Just put on an act and make them think your better than what you are!"
"You should be so proud of yourself!"
"How can they NOT love you when they hear what you're doing?!"
When you hear these things it's pretty hard to not think highly of yourself. But these are not the things the LORD is telling me.
"Do not boast so proudly,
or let arrogant words come out of your mouth,
for the LORD is a God of knowledge,
and actions are weighed by Him."
1 Samuel 2:3
WORTHLESSNESS
I already know that I am one of the youngest on my team. I'm not even the minimun age to be able to go yet. Again…..the whispers….
"What is a little girl like you going to do?!"
"Your teammates are not going to take you seriously."
"Come on, Molly. What good are you going to do?"
True. I am only 20 years old (almost 21) but the Bible also has something to say about age.
"Let no one despise your youth;
instead, you should be an example to the believers in speech,
in conduct, in love, in purity"
1 Timothy 4:12
GUILT
Everyone has past mistakes. And Satan tries to use them against everyone. Every single little thing you have ever messed up on. Is it fair? No. This is what I hear…
"HA! Who could ever use you for good!?"
"You remember what you did last week? or a couple months ago? or a couple years ago?"
"Did God really forgive you for that?"
Guilt is one of the things I struggle with the most. How can God use me when I've failed Him time and time again. How can He use a mess up like me? And then I remember…
"It is I who sweeps away your transgressions for My own sake and remember your sins no more"
Isaiah 43:25
OVERLOAD
This whole process requires A LOT of work. Fundraising. Packing. Fundraising. Making sure you have exactly what you need. Fundraising. It's a bunch of work. And Satan has something to say about it…
"You really think you're going to get all that done? You can't even remember what all you need to do."
"You can't handle that, Molly"
"Your totally taking advantage of the people who are helping you."
"Why aren't you doing MORE?!"
"YOURE NOT DOING ENOUGH, MOLLY!"
Overload. Everyone has experienced it. And it's tough. But remember….
"Cast all your care on Him, because He cares for you."
1 Peter 5:7
"Do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be afriad, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you; I will help you.
I will hold on to you with my righteous right hand."
Isaiah 41:10
"Don't worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God"
Philippians 4:6
PRIDE
WORTHLESSNESS
GUILT
OVERLOAD
These are the things Satan is trying to use against me right now. I was really feeling it today. It's crazy that he will try ANYTHING to stop you from doing the work the Lord wants you to. He can use pride to think too highly of yourself so you lose sight of God and only see yourself. And then he can use worthlessness and guilt to make you feel like your not worthy or good enough to do anything, none the less God's work. What extremes. My mind is in an almost constant battle. I think I'm doing the right thing, working hard, and then I hear these whispers and it makes me second guess myself. But then I remember where I need to be seeking counsel. Where I found those verses. Right now, my nose should always be stuck in my Bible so Satan can't use those whispers against me.
I know this is going to be constant until I leave and maybe even when I'm gone.
I have to remember that those whispers aren't from my creator. The One who created me in His own image. The One who knit me in my mother's womb and knew me before I was born. The One who has a great plans for me. The One who will never leave my side. No matter how many time Satan tries to bring me down.
