Over the past months God has been chiseling away at my hard exterior. The one that tells me I don’t deserve grace, the exterior that I compare to others, the exterior that I hide my true self behind, and He has been working hard to show me that underneath this earthy facade is a Daughter of Christ worthy of the grace that has been given to me, worthy of the love, worthy of Gods everlasting favor. Throughout my life I have been told that I receive Gods love because Jesus died on the cross for me, which is true, but at training camp I was able to realize that I am worthy of Gods love, that I am wanted desperately by my Papa, and that I have value.
Gone are the days where I would hesitate to join a conversation or sit with people at the lunch table because I didn’t want to be a bother, gone are the days when I would compare my self to others based on looks or intelligence, and gone are the days when I would stray away from God because my troubles didn’t seem important enough… Ok, maybe not completely gone, it takes a while to build up such self confidence, but because I have value, and I am worthy of grace and love, it makes it much easier to deal with the struggles I have in the past. And I have God’s amazing grace to thank for that.
This grace has been shown to me through my family, professors, and friends, but I want to take a second to talk about how this blessing has been shown through my WR squad.
I cannot stress this enough, I have known these people face to face for only SEVEN DAYS and already they have made such an impact on me. Through the course of that one week I have been beaten down physically, mentally, and spiritually. I have never felt more alone, tired, hurt, self-conscious, or spiritually attacked in my life. HOWEVER, every time I tripped, somebody caught me. Every time I was alone, someone had a hand to hold and a hug to give. Every time I felt distant from God, someone reminded me that I was here following His will and obeying His call. And, most of all, every time I felt not good enough, I was listened to, I was given a friend, I was counseled, I was told that I am a daughter of Christ, and I have value.
Am I scared for what this year has to bring? You bet I am.
Will I let it deter me from what God is calling me to do? Not a chance. Because when I stumble, God and his amazing grace put me back on my feet and point me towards the right direction.
Am I going to turn around, change my mind, or leave the path put down before me? Nope, because my Lord has already been where I am going.
Praise God for his grace. His love. And for all the plans He has for me. Thank the Lord for my amazing squad, my awesome team, and may we spend the next year doing His work, spreading His word, and basking in His favor. Amen.
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