So as some of you know I’m working full-time at Carolina Creek Christian Camps (3 camps and counting! woot!) but probably only two of you know how God is reconstructing this thing in my chest called a heart.
Man! Where do I begin?! I feel like I’ve been through so many different emotions and I haven’t even left for my trip yet. I guess I’ll just start from where I am now…camp.
At the creek I do whatever is asked of me. That could be anything from cleaning pools to cleaning cobwebs and spiders off of EVERYTHING (*shivers*) Then I serve retreat groups in any way they need to be served and then some.
I’ve gotten up everyday and given everything I felt I could give and then have had to give more. In the midst of this my heart has struggled with
loneliness
a burden for my friends,
whether I’m worthy to be a leader,
if the Lord will provide for my trip,
whether I’m living in God’s will,
and many more things that sometimes leaves me on the brink of just losing my mind. (but hey aren’t we all lol)
But in all of it there are two things God has consistently been telling me:
1. You are not alone
2. I am faithful
Of course in my holiness I respond with,
“Are you sure? I get that you are faithful and all but I certainly feel like I’m alone.”
God in all His awesomeness says, “Yes” 🙂
Well ok then.
Now I wish I could say that after that exchange a bubble of peace descended from heaven and engulfed me but really it more resembled rain. From moment to moment I have been able to see how God is perfectly providing peace and I’m beginning to see it more and more. I never would’ve have guessed that while cleaning the pool there would be perfect quiet in my mind. No anxious thoughts, just me, the leaf master, and whatever the weather is outside. 🙂
Thank you Lord for peace while cleaning a 400,000 gallon pool named Adeline 🙂
