You’ve heard this word on a daily basis, and probably 5-10 times on Sundays at church. You’ve been saying this since you were a child, and even more as you’ve grown older. Now before I confuse you even more, no I am not talking about that F word. Come on people this is a blog about Jesus sheesh. Just kidding. The forbidden phrase I am writing about is “I’m Fine.”
I have hidden behind this phrase for years. Afraid to actually tell people how I’m really feeling. If you look at my social media you’d think I have a great life and family and that I love Jesus. All of this is true! Don’t get me wrong I have been blessed beyond measures with my life and family. I do love Jesus with my whole heart, but there is so much hidden. Struggles that I deal with, pain that I have, and anxiety about what people think about me are all hidden behind “I’m fine.”
I think that we are so worried about our images that we are rarely ever honest about our struggle. I mean how am I supposed to live up to the standards of the “perfect” Christian if I struggle with anxiety? Or porn? Or depression? Or that I am afraid to fail? I’ll just keep these things buried so that no one thinks less of me. How am I supposed to travel the world and tell people about love, when I struggle to even love myself?
I believe God has been convicting me about this for a long time. To openly admit that I am not perfect, I do not have it altogether. Not even close. That I have real struggles every single day. Then, I think about the love of Jesus, and that no matter how many times I say “I’m fine.” He knows the truth. & He still loves me the same.
I challenge all of you, let’s be honest. Cancel the phrase “I’m fine.” Be honest whether you are happy, sad, anxious, ecstatic. Anything. Don’t be afraid that your struggle hinders you from living the “perfect” Christian life. God came for the people who don’t have it all together. He even used one of the worst sinners to be one of His greatest disciples. He wants to use you and me, all of the good, bad, and ugly.
