============ PACKING STRESS DISORDER ==========
My bedroom floor is covered in stuff for the Race.
Do I really have to bring all of it??
I wonder what would happen if I only brought 2 pairs of pants, a skirt, a few shirts, and just the necessities
This thought keeps popping in my head and the more I think about the more I want to make it a reality.
Just a few things for the year!
My bag wouldn’t be heavy
My back wouldn’t hurt
And if my stuff got stolen…
Wellllll, I feel bad for the poor fella who swiped it. They picked a pretty sucky bag.
Just the necessities.. But it seems like I have all of America’s department stores sprawled out on my floor.
This is going to be a year God is going to break me of certain insecurities and I think this is why I keep hearing necessities.
so i guess its time to condense…
The only reason I’m packing more than a few pairs of clothes instead of what I know I’m being called to bring is because of a fear of feeling ugly. I know it sounds crazy, but while I’m packing I catch myself thinking, “Well, just in case you feel ugly in this, bring these, and if you feel weird in these bring those…. AND ON IT GOESSSSSS
God is calling me into a new confidence. A confidence that will have nothing to do with what the mirror says and what the media portrays but instead it will have everything to do with him and who he says I am.
This transition from insecurity to confidence doesn’t start the day I leave America it starts now and in my packing and the amount of clothes I bring.( sounds weird I know..)
It’s kind of scary to be away for a year and only have just a few pairs of clothes but if this is Gods start to a change in my heart then I can definitely dig it.
I’m sorry Tim, Hannah, Shy, Karen, Josh, and Darren. Forgive me for smelling in advance.
