I really don't know what to write about. There is so much going on in my head. So much has happened in Haiti that im just speechless. I usually can write very easily.
I've sat here for about an hour trying to word what ive been through in the right way…and I CAN'T!
My heart beats with anticipation.
I desire to tell my stories to give every detail to write in such away that i make you feel the way i do but my fingers are lifeless on this black keyboard.
My mind is so full that i don't know where to begin.
so much has happened in the last few weeks that it would be impossible to write all that i want to to tell, each story, to emphasize each emotion i have felt, to explain the tears i have cried and the people i have seen, the things that i have seen that i thought only existed in nightmares, the tiny hands that i have held that grasped so tightly, tiny calloused feet that walk amongst rocks,glass, and garbage.
i have held these little ones letting them kiss me, caressing my hair, and holding my face in their hands looking into their eyes. Oh i swear i could see there beautiful souls. I could see them for what they really were, a beautiful creation deserving of love but never receiving it. Their eyes scream “Oh, please love me.”
I have seen little ones walking alone nothing but a ragged shirt on,their little bellies sticking out, hungry.
To explain the pain that overcomes my heart for this world and the people who are in it would simply be an impossible task.
I have seen the evil in this place, voodoo ruining peoples lives, curses killing people, innocent blood being spilled.
I have seen satan in this place, emptiness and lifeless souls, demons possessing and clinging onto those who are lost, Satan rummaging through our hearts because we forgot to lock the door,rampaging through our minds like there open books, and it was all because we let sin corrode us.
The blinders have finally fallen off. I can see what lurks in the night what surrounds me in the day,
The life that i thought was real in America was far from reality.
I have seen Jesus in the faces of the people, in the tears that they cry, in the hugs that they give, in the love that they desire, I have witnessed healing,churches rising up,ministries flourishing and expanding, money desperately needed that comes out of nowhere, safety and protection in the most dangerous of situations.
I have seen his magnificent work, i know his love, and i hear his voice, I know when he calls.
He has loved me and there is no other love like his. It's a love so strong that it overcomes the evil in this world.
it overcomes the hurt and the pain that i have felt in my life. I
t's A love that brings me to tears just thinking about it.
A love that captivates so completely that nothing else matters.
A love so satisfying that worry has no place in your heart because you know your future is safe in his hands and as long as you're living for him everything that was ever bad will someday be used for good.
A love so strong that you're no longer afraid to live the life you always wanted to live,you're no longer afraid to step out of the boundaries this broken world has given you.
In a hopeless world I have seen hope for another day
In a broken state i have seen mending and putting back of the fragile pieces
I have seen jesus and his blood shed on his children. The blood that he shed so that our eyes would be open to the evil in this world, how to combat it, how to fight against it with the love hope and joy Jesus brings
Jesus shed his blood so that we could be awaken to reality and to be able to finally live our lives to the fullest to become what we were meant to be. To be more then what this world thinks we should be. To live above expectations, to overcome fear, to press on, to fight against all that is not good, to love.
He brings life and anything that is not of him is death.
Believe me i know i have seen it and i have felt it, so much so that i can’t even put it down on paper.
Please believe me and know that He is real dont let your doubt ruin the best life that you could ever have
Believe me I know Because i have seen him in many things and i have felt him so many times, so much so that i cant even describe the magificence of it all to put it down on paper.
