Today’s question: “What do I expect from this trip?” What
does expect even mean? The definition says it means to look forward to something,
an assumption toward a situation or person, or to anticipate the birth of a
child. When I think of expect I think of
how a situation, environment, person, or day will affect me. Because really everything is all about me.
Right? Wrong. I do only see things from my perspective though so what I expect
from anything will always be tainted by my life experience. So my goal in
figuring out what to expect from this trip and for my life has been to think outside
the box of my life experience. Eight years ago before I started following
Christ I would have never dreamed that this opportunity would be possible for
me. Even if I would have been given this opportunity I would have expected the
bottom to fall out somewhere along the way and for my heart to be broken. These
expectations would have lead me to not expect anything good at all. When you
don’t expect anything your heart can’t be damaged. Now my life is insanely different.
I expect a lot. I expect the same things from this trip that I expect from everyday
life. I expect …
- To be taken out of my comfort zone
- To see God work in ways I have never seen Him work
- To see the broken healed, and the Lost found
- To be challenged
- To hope for the impossible and see it come to pass
- To grow in my relationship with God
- To strive to walk in His power
- To see God plow through destruction
- To question
- To love big and have my heart broken because of that love
- To hurt
- To be overwhelmed
- To be desperate
- To be completely dependent on God and everything He offers
- To be in awe
- To birth new dreams
- To look forward to hearing voices and seeing faces of those closest to me
- To be so overwhelmed by God’s provision
- To be so unemotional about everything
- To be so heartbroken for people
- To be so okay with the uncertainty of my future
- To want things so much, like this trip, or God, or
restoration, or dreams. - To feel so alive
Obviously I expect so much more now than I once did. There
are times though where my old perspective wants to dictate my new expectations.
Thankfully though I am transformed by the renewing of my mind and I am made a
new creation through my creator. Ez. 36:26-27 says, “Moreover, I will give you
a new spirit within you; and I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh
and give you a heart of flesh. I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to
walk in My statues, and you will be careful to observe My ordinances.” I have a
new heart and a new spirit that allows me to expect, dream, and imagine with
the faith of a child and the wisdom of an elder. So my question for you is this. What do you
expect and why? How do you let your life experience taint your expectations? I
would seriously love to hear from you on this. I would love to pray for you and
connect with you so please comment or shoot me an e-mail at [email protected]. I also
don’t know really how to fill my blog until we leave so I thought I would ask
you. What should I write about? Any questions you think I should answer? Just
let me know. Also I head to training camp on Saturday the 20th so
please be praying for me. I will post a blog when I get back home to fill you
in on how camp went. Thankful that you all are part of my story at least
interested enough to read this blog.
