{I’m not always one to recognize God for his….blessings to me? And sometimes the cliché-ness of that annoys me. But, here lately I’m noticing the littlest things that just make me smile and know that he’s intertwined in them. It could be the most covert act…but I am able to smile in awe a little later. It may be a surprised percentage off an item that I’m required to purchase for the race. It may be a distant relative speaking love and encouragement, unaware of the impact being made.}
{I find myself thinking a LOT about finances….finances in every area of my life. I wonder about the cut my personal account will take, things I can sell that I'm no longer using, and what I will come back to. I’m trying to find the balance between the responsibility side of it and the worry side of it. I try to not let it consume my mind. It is extremely easy to doubt and not see this trip happening, but encouragement and provision quickly arise when these thoughts take over. In my heart, I just KNOW that I’m going in July. God will make that happen.}
{I’m pretty thankful for a few specific individuals who have stepped up to help me make all of this happen. I’m easily overwhelmed with the continual list that I have going to check off before launch. There are so many little things that my lil mind seems to leave out or not rationally think about. I’m reminded of steps to be taken and for my eyes to be open to opportunities for God to lead, not me. I’m reminded that he has more planned, wants to provide for me more than I want him to.}
I already feel bits of my person being stripped of self. I can't do this on my own. And God is slowly showing me that. My pride hurts and so does the recognition that it exists….but I guess that's all part of it huh?
"He who planted the ear, does he not hear?
He who formed the eye, does he not see?
He wo disciplines the nations, does he not rebuke?
He who teaches man knowledge
-the LORD-knows the thoughts of man,
that they are but a breath."
Psalm 94:9-10
