It’s been a long week for me. I don’t have any transportation at the moment, so I’ve been kind of stranded and forced to lay low and rest. It’s not really a bad thing because that’s what I need right now, but it’s still hard for me to sit still. With my bike totaled this marks the first time since I was fifteen that I haven’t had a vehicle, and for most of that time I had at least two or three. (I’ve been a good little American consumer). Anyway God has been teaching me a lot through it. The day after I wrecked my bike, I got online and started looking at cars, which I didn’t need to be doing considering my concussion was so bad I couldn’t even hold a conversation with someone. But without any wheels I felt a little vulnerable and naked. I didn’t like it at all. Then God told me to stop being an idiot, and trying to fix problems that aren’t really problems and just rest……………… which leads me to the next thing God has been speaking to me about……….. “Living in the moment”.
Every morning I wake up and Gods mercies are new and fresh. He can’t see my failures from yesterday nor does he care. He’s my father. He has only an anticipation of how I will love him today. There is a moment in time called “Now” that we were created for. Our father exists outside of time and the only place we can experience his power, grace, miracles, provision, love, and everything that he is, is in that moment called now. If we look at the past, we can see what God has done. If we look to the future we can anticipate what he’s going to do. But the only real interaction we can have with God can only happen in the present. Is it any wonder that our culture is laced with lies preventing us from actually living in the moment.
All of Jesus’ teachings were based on this concept. I can’t find anything which leads me to believe that we should be worried about yesterday or tomorrow. I think one of the biggest lies in our culture today is the idea of retirement, or saving and building wealth for the future. It is completely anti scriptural. It requires our lives to be consumed with working to provide for a day that may never come. Our culture tells us that we deserve a standard of living that will consume most of our time to provide. Then what time we do have left, we use hobbies and media to distract our attention from actually being in the moment. We ask to see the hand of God in our lives but we are never to be found in the only place that that can happen. We want to see the hand of God in our lives, but there is never any room. How can He commune with us today when we are distracted with providing for something that he has already promised us.
I’m not writing this to offend you, but to challenge myself. It takes stupid amounts of faith to actually live this way, and I’m nowhere near it. It’s a position of vulnerability that hurts. Jesus said that he never did or said anything that wasn’t from his Father in heaven. The only way he could do this is to be in constant communion with God. The thought of living like this blows my mind………………. But I want it…… MT
