The Chair
Its a symbol of debrief.
In the middle of worship late one night, someone pulled it in the front and center of the room and climbed up. She yelled out what was in her heart, declaring freedom from the past. When the placer stepped down, she did not replace the chair. It was not put back to where it was before. For one person to release freedom into a place and then neatly put it back in its corner would be next to impossible.
When that chair was placed, freedom was placed. The atmosphere changed.
People began to step up on the chair and declare freedom. They declared freedom over the bondage they had been living in. Freedom hung in the air, occupying space and entering our lungs.
Not everyone present took a turn on the chair that night, nor the next night when it made an encore appearance. Not everyone had the need to, and not everyone listened to the call. But, on the second night I listened to God, asked for the Holy Spirit’s words (for I had none), and placed one bare foot and then the other upon that chair. I lifted my head up, looked out at my family and opened my mouth.
That night when I climbed onto the chair the words flowed out of me in such a beautiful manner. I cannot really tell you all I said; for it was not me, but the Holy Spirit. I will do my best to share what I said and to go into more detail.
When I stepped up I interrupted the song with the lyrics,
No place I’d rather be
Then here in Your love,
Here in Your love
The words were reverberating threw my whole being. The truth of those words were present and evident in my life.
It was not always so. I did not always want to be in His love. I didn’t because it was much easier to be where I knew I was “safe”. To be in my easy place of escape, inside my own head. From age 6 to 21 I was addicted to porn, masturbation, fantasy and lust.(Theres so much more to this, and I would love to share more and answer any questions you have). I tried to fight it on my own, but could not do it. God’s love never left me though. He fought for me every day, every second. He would whisper in my ear how much He loves me.
It has no more power over me, except when I let it, and for the last year it was a constant up and down, win and lose. The only way to win a battle is to have help, to let others know that a battle is being fought. So I shared, a little here and a little there. Each time I shared it brought more freedom into my life. Each time I shared, I opened up more room for God in my heart, but I had to make sure I filled it with him and not something else. I have found so much freedom in sharing my past with others. Freedom for me and freedom for others.
The Lord is the Spirit, and where the Lord’s Spirit is, there is freedom. 2 corinthians 3:17
There is no shame in my past, nor my future. I am not that person, I never was. God sees me as the person he created me to be, as my destiny.
When I stood up on that chair it brought in a new gust of freedom that will be felt all over the world.
I will fight for anyone who needs it. I will fight with the strength God has given me. For I am weak but He is STRONG. God has set me free and I want others to be set free as well. Silence will strangle you, but speaking truth will bring life.
All I want is to be here is His love,
Here in His love
No place I’d rather be
