There is power in the same of Jesus.
The name of Jesus is one recognized all over the world sometimes it is not pronounced the same way we would or with a slight twist, but generally you know when his name is said. At the beginning of this month I forgot how much power is in the name of Jesus. His name can break every chain. He has already broken so many of the chains that held me captive.
These last few days I have had the privilege to be in fellowship with amazing men of God. Not only have I been working with Godly men from Moldova we have also worked with Godly men from Germany who have come to the church to build a playground. Not only has my team and I been blessed by being preferred by these men who wish to keep us from doing hard physical work, we have have also been blessed by the words and action that reflect God.
We have slowly learned more and more about their stories. They all have pasts when they were far from God. I would never expect that, because these men are on fire for God, they worship Him, they talk about Him and to Him. I have never been very confident in speaking the name of Jesus. In sharing about Him, what He has done in my life and what He has done in others. Hearing the stories of others and seeing the person they are today is such a blessing. they are confident in God who has saved them from their past and I want that. I need that.
I forgot that every person I see God see also.
That every person has God in them or needs God in them.
Every person is special, To me and to God. I have been blessed this month by every person I have meet and every person I can now call my friend.
I have been blessed to be with my team for another month. They see me at my best and worst and call me out. They show me how to love God. How to share His great name. How to talk with others about our Heavenly Father.
I have a craving to share about God, my magnificent King. My lover my savior. He is everything to me. I want so much for others to know how well he takes care of his sons and daughters
I feel like I have so much to say, so many words in my heart, so many moments that I want to share and no way to do it. I can not easily put it into words, nor can I make the words eloquent sentences.
I am so tired from holding back out of fear. Holding back from talking to others out of fear. Fear that they will not want to hear about God. That I can not say the right words. That I will slip up and choose my wants over their needs. Choose to look at a man and forget he is not my husband and I do not have the privileges of a wife in thoughts or deeds. A fear I had thought I had conquered but, really it will be a life long battle. A battle to choose God. A battle to die to myself and what I lived in. It is not an easy road. To walk straight to Jesus, not looking at either side, not veering off for luxuries that entice me.
I know when I am not walking towards Jesus, I can feel it in my soul. I have no peace, I feel like crap. I do not communicate with others well. I buy into satan's lies so easily.
Today was a great day. Today I gave things up to God. I remembered and choose to give my worries, fears and brokenness to God. To remembered he is my KING. He is my man. He wants to take on the physically hard chores. He does not want me to have to work until my back is broken. He wants what is best for me. He loves me so much. His face shined down on me today. God helped me get past my fears and worries and gave me beautiful gifts of friendships.
