I have never written a blog before, nor do I know what a blog is all about, so that is why I am sitting here at my desk, starring at my laptop, and wondering what I should talk about. Should I talk about my life? or my struggles? Should I talk about past mission trips? I really do not know, but I guess I will start with a fear that I have, and that is to be judged.
Whenever I begin to think about what I should talk about, my mind immediately begins to question myself. “What if they make fun of your grammar?” or “What if you sound dumb and don’t know how to explain your thoughts?” or “What if you sound ‘super spiritual’ and people feel judged?” What if, What if, What if, What if. My mind does not stop.
My problem is that I simply just don’t want to offend someone. I have always been the type of person that gets along with just about anyone, and I would love to keep it that way, but it seems to me that sooner or later I will begin to bump heads with people that do not know the Lord, and with people that claim to follow Him.
My goal is never to call anyone out or to point out the flaws in anyone, especially if it’s not directly to their face. Rather I desire to uplift, encourage, help, bring hope, etc.. My heart’s desire is to seek Jesus, and only Jesus, nothing else. But one of my prayers is, that I want to live such a life that causes other believers to be convicted by it. Not because I’m better than them, but because it is not I who they will be seeing, but Christ in me.
I want to live a life fully surrendered to the Lord, to the point that I know His will, and I’ve learned to know His voice just as much as I know my parents voice when they call my name from another room.
I love you guys, thanks for reading, and God bless.
