I have always feared weakness, feeling lost, not knowing what to say, or what to do. I used to think that struggling or needing help meant I had failed. I hated admitting when I couldn’t do things on my own.
Recently I read this passage of scripture:
Psalm 28:7 “The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.”
This blew my mind. I was reminded that we are not meant to do life alone. In moments of fear we can often forget that God is by our side, ever step of the way, giving us strength to concur our fears. The struggles, the fear, the weakness are what bring us closer to God.
I didn’t know how scared I was until I realized I had no plan for my life after high school. I panicked. I have always seen myself doing so many things, but never feeling myself being called toward a specific career path. I spent a lot of time worrying about what I wanted to do, and not enough time asking God what he wanted me to do. I felt lost without him.
I have always found God in music. When I was younger, my mum would sing worship songs to me when I was scared. Worship is such a powerful thing. One of my favourite songs has some of my favourite lyrics:
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior”
As children of Christ, we are called to drop everything and to serve Him, be willing to leave everything behind to follow the Lord. This will look different for every person: for me, it means participating in the World Race Gap Year program. I am so excited to grow in my faith and to spread the word of God. This will be a life changing experience, which I will embrace with open arms.
M
